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The Day I Stepped On The Scale And I Gained Weight
Sometimes prioritising your health is the hardest thing you can do
I knew I had to gain weight.
I was desperate to become a mum and get pregnant, but I couldn’t remember the last time I had a menstrual cycle.
I had been stuck in a loop of disordered eating behaviours and overtraining for the best part of a decade, and I was desperately trying to crawl out of the hole I had dug myself.
I wanted to get better; I really did.
The thing is, I didn’t want to do the homework.
Getting a cycle back while recovering from an eating disorder is relatively simple, as I had to:
- Eat More and Gain Weight
- Rest
- Stress Less
The reality is that implementing those “simple” things into a daily routine is the hardest thing I had ever done until that point, and my brain was ready to explode in overwhelm and fear.
Some days were so difficult, it would take me more than 1 hour to have a simple snack.
This is how it went:
I would find myself tired and wired, sitting at my desk, after too many hours without food and too many coffees later, and my brain would…
